That is how it feels when you lose someone close to you. I have felt this way since my dad passed. Like life goes on for everyone else but I am stuck. I have lost loved ones before but never someone so close to me. It is a long process "grieving" that is. I have great days or even weeks than it all comes back.
I have to say though without Mike & the kids I'd be in bed everyday crying. But they give me reason countless reason to go on. Try to enjoy life! They have loved me though this & I see a light at the end of a very long tunnel. I am thankful for them & their love for me. I am very lucky to have been loved by them!